So it's the last day of the year and I began by waking 8 on a gloomy morning and walked all the way to the library for finals. 3 more papers to go and I'm free! Well not exactly because after my finals I have to read up on hybrid engines and learn about Japanese culture and go KL for an AIESEC conference. Based on my current events list I'll only be able to go home in February. Nevertheless I'll have my holidays! :D
So so 2012 has been an interesting year although I've spend half of it working a not so jolly job. Aside from that It had been a eventful year. The highlight of the year would be my New Zealand trip at the end of February.
So after I came by from New Zealand my life was occupied with ice cream and folding clothes. After 5 months of work, I have to decide which path I'm gonna take in my life. I wanted to be a chemical engineer but I fooled around too much so I had to settle with what I'm given with which is Electrical and Electronic Engineering in University Malaysia of Pahang.
I've been living in my hometown all my life so when I begin my uni life it was the first time I move out of my hometown. By living alone I felt more independent and more grown up. The lack of proper food here taught me how to save a lot hahahahaha. So here I am now in Pahang, counting down to a new year looking at the cows and think why cows can't party?
2012 also made me realize how much I like doing what I do most, making presents and I challenge all ym passion to Wendy hahaha. She practically receive presents from me every time I'm back and for god knows how many occasions. I've learned new things and see more things so I'm able to put them into my work and hopefully start up a gift shop one day after I graduate and have a stable income.
My aspirations
Do not get this confused with resolutions. These are aspirations so it's not the things I need to complete in a year. This is the list when years passed and I look back at this list, I'll know if I managed to achieve my dreams.
Looking at my scores for my current semester makes me wonder why am I studying engineering. The scores for my (surprisingly) maths and soft skill subjects are high whereas my engineering subjects aren't that good. Oh well perhaps in due time I'll start to like what I am studying now.
So yea it's been a while since I made a proper present, while this is not one of my best work but it's nice to me. Tried new ways of creating wonders instead of my usual methods.
My first and not so successful attempt at a pop up card
A lil farewell book for Zoe
Perhaps I should have became Santa instead of an engineer. I feel happy when I see how my presents affect people. I shall put up Santa among my list of aspirations.
So what if the world really ends tomorrow? Would you live today like any other day or you want to make today the best day of your life? Would you want to try out everything you have always wanted to do so life can end without regrets? If so then why did you wait until the apparent last day only to do it? Live life like it's your last day. Savor every moment because only that moment past, you can never get it back again. For instance, I lost two hours of my life I'll never get back again because of a compulsory nagging by the Principal of the dorm.
So if you're the person who only wanted to live life fully today, why didn't you do it earlier? Why wait until now to fulfill your dreams and aspirations? What if the world do not end tomorrow? Would you still wait for the next doomsday to do what you've always wanted to do?
So if today was the last day on earth, then it would be a little depressing for me as I spent the last few hours of life sleeping and rolling around in my hostel room. BUT if life goes on and the world still stands then yayyy i'm coming home for Christmas yo! Depressing thing is after my short holiday I'll be facing my finals. So much for rocking Xmas
Just because I speak English it doesn't mean I'm like a super genius. If I were I wouldn't end up in Pahang won't I? Everyone somehow gets that impression of me and when they find out I'm not as smart or as helpful as they hope I will be for their academics they get awfully disappointed. I din know people make friends just to leech of them for what they're good at. I make friends because I want to have friends. Not because that person is smart so I become his/her friend so I can excel in my studies.
So... Christmas is coming! I'm gonna wear formal with a santa hat for most of my classes this week. A way to end the semester with a bang :D
I'm coming home! World please don't end until I'm home eating all the goodness of dear o' Penang.
Okayy got reports and assignments and a whole lot of stuff to study for although it is not related to my course.
What summer said before this exact scene almost made me cry
And if want to be my friend just to leech of me please watch and love (500) Days Of Summer then i'll be your friend
It's interesting to see how your aspirations changes according to time. For instance when I was small I aspire to be a Pokemon Master. As I grow older I become more realistic and aimed for science. When I started to learn about physics, chemistry and biology, my initial aim was to be a mechanical engineer. Thanks to a wickedly awesome physics tuition teacher I'm more inclined towards physics and applied for mechanical after spm.
But.... I did not get what I want so I went to form 6 instead. Thanks to a wickedly psychotic physics teacher, all my passion for physics was slaughtered. So I focused on chemistry instead, a subject which I loved more than anything in school because of a few insanely awesome chemistry teachers, namely Pn. Yap and Mr. Liew, the Liew with the additional I for intelligence *inside joke*. So as I went through form 6, I aimed to be a chemical engineer instead initially.
Form 6 changed me in many ways I can say. For one I joined interact and meet random people and can talk more randomly to everyone. I became friends with a lot of the juniors because to be honest I did not have much friends in form 6 initially. Perhaps it's because my inability to speak Mandarin which made me feel out of place. Nonetheless the exposure to form 6 prepared me for a local uni life, a place where English educated people are as scarce as pork in Pekan.
It was halfway in form 6 also I felt more into the creative side of me. That is when I inspire to be a designer or to open up a gift shop like s&j. During form 6 was the peak of my creativity. To be honest I was quite amazed by the fact I was able to come up with such ideas for presents. If your curious about the stuff I make you can stalk this blog and check out the past posts. That was like the height of my creativity. The reason I say that is because now I feel as though all my creativity is drained. Perhaps I'm too occupied with god knows what to think and inspire.
Anyhow, I was torn between staying in engineering or attempt to achieve my dream of setting up a gift shop. The realistic part of me took over and decided it was safer to stay in science. The playful part of me distracted me from the path of a chemical engineer so this is where I am now. Studying electrical engineering majoring in electronics in Pekan, Pahang. An unholy place full of cows but to be honest, I don't feel that desolated being here. Perhaps it's the people I met here, perhaps it was some talks and lectures which changed how I see life, perhaps it's the cows.
But nonetheless I AM FREAKING STUCK HERE FOR CHRISTMAS AND NEW YEARS EVE WTF
So yea that is pretty much it. Life's here is kinda better now. The clouds are really very fluffy. Got a test marathon starting this Monday so... cheerio yo!
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The creative side of me
I have no idea what i'm doing LOL *inserts the dog pic*
Met the very friendly Penghulu who treat us to rambutans and lekor when we were doing our community service.
Today is a very mind changing day. Moments like this made me feel like I'm actually obtaining higher education. It is when studies no longer revolves around a book. Well most of my classes are still fully focused on academics but my Ethnic Relations class is something different. The lecturer of that subject is what I look for when studying in a university.
At this level, we're supposed to learn more than what we obtain from books. We need to learn to think, to speak, to lead and most importantly to be confident. My lecturer, Encik Ahmad teaches us in that way in his classes. He encourage us to speak up, to think and most importantly to be more confident and developed as a person. I hope I can have another lecturer like him.
What really imprint my amazement towards him was what he teaches in the lectures. He really did change how I think. Do you know what was the reasoning behind the special rights of the Malays in the Constitution? As a Chinese, I feel very frustrated by this article. It cost many more deserving people to not be able to pursue higher education and thus lead to the incompetence in the quality of present day graduates. The reason the article was drafted is to create a balance in the economy. But now the balance is quite, balanced? What is the reasoning behind the existence of this right? Actually I'm not supposed to talk about this because I can get arrested hahahhahaha.
Anyhow, have you ever thought of why this right still exists today? En. Ahmad believes when we are all truly united this right will no longer be important. It is when we consider ourselves as Malaysians rather than our racial background. Is it unity is fully achieve the special rights might be a thing of the past. Unity bonds us to make us, unite? Okay I need to improve my vocab. For now to be honest I would rather call myself a Chinese first before I call myself a Malaysian. It is very obvious to see we are all still bounded by our race. I would be a hypocrite if I say I'm not. Perhaps when unity is truly achieved in our country everyone will have equal rights. Hopefully.
Another interesting thing I've experience today is the AISEC info day. I would elaborate more but why don't you find out more about it yourself? Just google it up and you'll have a rough idea of what it is about and if you're interested then come join! You might get to pick up some chicks from overseas hahahaha.
To those who managed to read up until this point here are some pictures to make this post more lively.
A strong belief that something will happen or be the case in the future.
A belief that someone will or should achieve something
Everyone have their own expectations. I for one have my own expectations of myself. People also have their expectations on me, for instance how or what I'm supposed to achieve. As much as I am a dreamer, I am quite realistic on my expectations. Like when I first got my STPM results I was like omg I might be going to Pahang. And my expectations came true. Although I could have opt for a risk and try for UTP I decided to accept my fate and pursue my degree here.
The main reason I'm talking about expectations is that people always have high expectations of me. I'm not the most humble person you'll ever meet but I'll honestly tell you, I am not as great as everything expects me to be.
Is it because I speak English? Everyone can speaks English! Is it because I can socialize randomly? Everyone can do that! What made me different than everyone else? How is it that I get so much high expectations when I'm just like everyone else? It's kinda depressing to let loads of people down whenever they plied their expectations on me.
Should I live up to everyone's expectations? I hope to. Not being able to live up to everyone's expectations is annoying. I know I should think more about how I feel about myself rather than about how others think of me. Nevertheless the expectations they plied on me aren't that bad. Who knows if I'm able to live up to them I can achieve great things *shrugs
For the past 3 days I've been having almost the same dream. I've always woke up in my dream in my room at my own house. Looking at all my stuff and feel at home. When I actually woke up in reality in my hostel room I felt quite sad. This may be the first time I felt homesick. For the past 2 months I've been here all I felt was foodsick. Oh how much I miss you dear o'porky.
Today just happened to be the one day every year I feel annoyed that I have to grow up. I don't want to grow up. i want to always be the boy who wish to be among the star in the heavens, forever munching on strawberries and chocolates. But, reality is harsh. I have to grow up and step into adulthood. Putting a 2 in front of my age make it sound like I'm veryyyyy old. It's kinda depressing to be born at this time of the year especially in Malaysia because most of the major exams are held now. Well I do not have any exams but I'm not home. Depressing much. Oh well perhaps I can escape during Christmas. Hopefully.
Time past, people change, but no worries I'll always be the jumpy jolly kid who loves candy and stars.
It's kinda depressing to be looking at my Sharpies, color papers and embosser and felt like making something for myself #foreveralone
'If Tom had learned anything... it was that you can't ascribe great cosmic significance to a simple earthly event. Coincidence, that's all anything ever is, nothing more than coincidence... Tom had finally learned, there are no miracles. There's no such thing as fate, nothing is meant to be. He knew, he was sure of it now. '
-500 Days Of Summer -
I love that movie so so much. Maybe the reason I can watch it over and over and over again is because of the story line and Zooey Deschanel. I've come to the point again when I wonder if what I am doing now is what I want to do. All my life I've been studying science. But I don't really see my self being an engineer working on a lab somewhere or researching with tiny electronics. I wanna make presents! I want to make stars and give them to random people so I can brighten up their day. But honestly I cant see myself making a living out of that. Perhaps after 4 years I might love fiddling with electronics and construct a snow machine so I can experience snowwwwww. Most of my seniors told me there is a huge chance I might not continue to be an engineer after graduating. Most of the grads they know are pursuing various fields which are not related to engineering. Perhaps I can be like that?
Anyhow I should focus on the present and not wonder about the uncertainties in the future. My current aim is to work as an engineer until I can get a stable income. After that I want to open up my own arts and craft shop. Either that or I study business and analyse the market and start a chain. In order for all of that to happen, I need to finish my assignment and presentations first LOL
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I'm feeling creative again! But I don't time to materialize the ideas in my head. Oh well it'll have to wait until January when I get a longer break.
I'm gonna turn 20 soon DDDDDD: in a week plus I'll grow out of my teens and... become old?
For someone who always get presents for people, I don't really know what I want for myself.
I actually wanna print out a life size taylor swift poster and paste on my wall but she's too tall so I wanted to print So Yeon instead but it's still very big so I wanted to print a life sized Pikachu but it's too yellow so I'll just grab some poster from home and paste it here.
I say goodbye to So Yeon Here but I have Taylor Swift to welcome me home!
After 2 months I'm back in Penang. I just discovered the only thing Penangites complain about when they live outside Penang is the lack of good food. Me for instance have no problems living in the middle of nowhere with nothing to do. The only thing I can't cope is I GOT NO PORKY. My sis also complained about the food when she's studying in kl. We live with good food for so long already. So when we are tossed to an unknown place without awesome food we can't survive without complaining.
FOUR ROTTWEILER PUPPIES!!!
Million Mee
First meal after i reached
PORK RIB NOODLES :DDD
When I run out of ideas I plagiarize
The otter pic so cute
I'm still planning on what to eat for the next few days. Anyone want to watch Ted? I wanna watch but it's depressing to watch alone D: Call me maybe if you're in Penang?
Feeling blissful today even though I got a presentation and a test tomorrow and I did not start a single thing yet. Maybe is because I've been eating everything within my sights. Today I ate fried rice and chicken for lunch, 3 bottles of Vitagen, buscuits, puddings, ribenna and Appolo for lunch, for dinner I had 4 roti telurs, one cheesy wedges and gummy bears. Life with plenty to eat is blissful. The food here ain't the best but still it is food. *shrugs
One thing that annoys me a lot when I'm here is how assertive people are with their beliefs. Whenever I told them I'm a free thinker-ish I constantly get preached. I did not say your god or beliefs are wrong. So why are you saying I'm wrong for not having a religion. I constantly repeat to everyone I do believe in god just not any god in particular. I said this before and I'll say it again I believe in morality. I know we should not do bad things and be good in life. Isn't that enough to get me through life? Every time I get preached I always show my poker face and agree to everything because I know if I disagree i'll get preached more.
Anyhow, gummy bears are gonna cheer me on for my test and presentation tomorrow
This is the first time since last year maybe I stayed up this late for academic purposes. My overly ambitious side of me is starting to manifest here. I've got a ton of things to do yet I still wanna get involve in more activities which will practically eat all my free time I need for sleep.
this made me happy
Anyhow gonna be continue trying to be an over achiever.
I don't get the buzz with being able to speak decent English. We have taken English as a subject since our primary days. So if you are my age now which is in my late late late teens then you would have learned English for at least 13 years now. That is more than half of my life. Language is an acquired skill so it can't be obtained overnight. So since we have learned English for so long now why is the English level in this country so depressing?
Maybe the reason I'm decent in English is because I'm dreadful in Mandarin? That is surely not a valid reason. I've met many people who are awesome in multiple languages and also good in English. So why can't everyone be like that? Why is English so greatly ignored by everyone?
"The first time I met you I thought you were a super genius" A common misconception of English educated person. If I was a super genius I wouldn't be stuck in the middle of nowhere with cows as my best friends.
Anyhow I'm gonna master Mandarin by this year or at least before I grad to show everyone even I can master a basic language in my time here so why can't everyone master English?
Dilemmas of an English ed in a Mandarin majority society, chapter one. This may be my new topic as I have no pictures to post here lolololol.
SHE IS IN MALAYSIA and I'm stuck in the middle of nowhere fml
It's been a month since I've left home. I've pretty much gotten used to the way of life here. I feel grateful because I've got people I know everywhere I go. Although I'm the only one from high school to come UMP, I got a relative staying in Pahang as well as few seniors who help me a lot in these recent weeks. There are moments which I've always regret not taking a chance with UTP or go for private uni instead but everything happens for a reason. I think. I'm just hoping I'll still get to pursue great things after I graduated from here.
Anyhow my phone went to the hospital for a week plus now, else I would have post more pictures on life in UMP. The lectures are... well some are educational some are just pure utter bullshit. Nevertheless I came here to learn and hopefully I can do that well. I've been told it isn't hard to gain the dean list, but you must have the initiative to do so. Walk your talk.
I miss my phone and I miss my otter. I thought I can always see the stars here but the monsoon season made it constantly cloudy @#^&^%$#@!@$%^&*
Oh and one of my aims here is to master Mandarin by the time i grad or maybe before my first year ends. *fingers crossed*
My university decided to block google sites to protest so I have no google, youtube, blogger, gmail and any access to google site until 27th. HOWEVER, the cafeteria wifi is a public wifi. They no block :DDDDDD I actually miss my blog cos of the block lols.
One interesting question i encountered during one of my Asian civilization and Islamic studies class.
Q : Please describe a civilized person based on your religious beliefs. I find it ironic to be asked to answer this question due to my free thinker mentality. My lecturer said those without a religion could not gain entry to UMP lolololol lucky i put one when I applied.
Anyhow, I still answered the question although I did not state what were my religious beliefs. A : A civilized person based on my religious beliefs should be a person who believe in humanity and morality. To be honest I'm not that into religion but I believe in morality. We should do good and so no bad will befall upon us. It's sort of like karma. Do good and you'll be blessed with more.. goodness? ( I tried not to mention I'm a free thinker as my lecturer will not be so pleased) We should all treat each other as equals. You may be a king or.. well a king is kinda powerful, anyhowww, No matter who you are you are still a human being. We are all humans after all, so we should treat each other as equals.
After that I got off topic and talk about things I can't really remember now lololol.
I actually wanna talk about the potato. I wanna say I believed in the potato. I pray to a potato. We are like potatoes. Some are round, some are long, some are.... not so well formed? Everyone varies, just like a potato. It's hard to find two exact same potato. Same goes to us. Everyone is different in their own way. So we should accept everyone for the way they are. This is way I support LGBT. Human rights ftw! I can't say all these in public else I might get burn so bad I might not survive lols.
We should all believe in the potato
I made a lot of friends here but somehow I'm sitting alone in the cafeteria blogging. Ironic ==" The assignments, quizzes and tests are starting to pile up. Won't be that free to revive my blog anymore.
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Might be able to go back home soon. Must find a way to capture an otter to bring back soon.
It's my second week living alone here and I think I pretty much lost contact with everyone back home. Everyone must be too busy saving the world I guess.
To be honest I can make a lot of friends and meet a lot of people but until now I haven't met anyone who.. thinks like me? The scarcity of English educated people here made me feel alone sometimes. Oh well once I can master Mandarin properly then perhaps I can blend in better. *shrugs*
Okayyy I swear to god when I left my room I did not open the window.
I suddenly feel like exploring the campus now hahahhahaha.
Anyhow gonna watch (500) Days Of Summer for the 987654567843456th time
