(500) Starry Nights Of Winter ★: Let The Rain Fall Down and Wake My Dreams

It's interesting to see how your aspirations changes according to time. For instance when I was small I aspire to be a Pokemon Master. As I grow older I become more realistic and aimed for science. When I started to learn about physics, chemistry and biology, my initial aim was to be a mechanical engineer. Thanks to a wickedly awesome physics tuition teacher I'm more inclined towards physics and applied for mechanical after spm.

But.... I did not get what I want so I went to form 6 instead. Thanks to a wickedly psychotic physics teacher, all my passion for physics was slaughtered. So I focused on chemistry instead, a subject which I loved more than anything in school because of a few insanely awesome chemistry teachers, namely Pn. Yap and Mr. Liew, the Liew with the additional I for intelligence *inside joke*. So as I went through form 6, I aimed to be a chemical engineer instead initially.

Form 6 changed me in many ways I can say. For one I joined interact and meet random people and can talk more randomly to everyone. I became friends with a lot of the juniors because to be honest I did not have much friends in form 6 initially. Perhaps it's because my inability to speak Mandarin which made me feel out of place. Nonetheless the exposure to form 6 prepared me for a local uni life, a place where English educated people are as scarce as pork in Pekan.

It was halfway in form 6 also I felt more into the creative side of me. That is when I inspire to be a designer or to open up a gift shop like s&j. During form 6 was the peak of my creativity. To be honest I was quite amazed by the fact I was able to come up with such ideas for presents. If your curious about the stuff I make you can stalk this blog and check out the past posts. That was like the height of my creativity. The reason I say that is because now I feel as though all my creativity is drained. Perhaps I'm too occupied with god knows what to think and inspire.

Anyhow, I was torn between staying in engineering or attempt to achieve my dream of setting up a gift shop. The realistic part of me took over and decided it was safer to stay in science. The playful part of me distracted me from the path of a chemical engineer so this is where I am now. Studying electrical engineering majoring in electronics in Pekan, Pahang. An unholy place full of cows but to be honest, I don't feel that desolated being here. Perhaps it's the people I met here, perhaps it was some talks and lectures which changed how I see life, perhaps it's the cows.

But nonetheless I AM FREAKING STUCK HERE FOR CHRISTMAS AND NEW YEARS EVE WTF

So yea that is pretty much it. Life's here is kinda better now. The clouds are really very fluffy. Got a test marathon starting this Monday so... cheerio yo!