Let Me Go

The more I see about arts and design courses the more I want to pursue them. I go to random shops and see interesting stuff and wonder if I could make a living designing all those stuff. I don't mind if I don't earn thousands or millions. This is a job I feel I can be most blissful. Having to start back from diploma level really made me hesitate and reluctant to pursue this... dream? Somehow now I seemed to see things differently and can get ideas from seeing random things around me. How I wish to open up a shop with gifts and toys and pretty much unique things all designed by me.

I did applied for Curtin and shall do some more applications when I list down all the unis I want to apply for. Maybe I can ask the education consultants see if it is possible for me to realize my dream.

The arts and design stuff is a dream and honestly and I'm not being a pessimistic person,dreams and reality don't always comply. Chemical engineering or mechanical engineering seemed to be a more safe future for me. Oh well. I have until April to decide.

Good Night and May The Odds Be Ever In Your Favor! ( Currently very overly obsessed over that line hahahaha)

Stand In The Rain Outside

One month and a week. That is the longest I've worked besides for my dad. Today was my last day at Haagen. It has been a very fun job. When it gets busy it's a little tiring yes but the people and the environment there is fun to work at. Through working at Haagen I get to see more and know more. I get to meet weird and eccentric people. I get to meet friendly and cheerful people and I do get to meet people who I want to punch them right in the face hahahaha. Oh well, the next time I go to Haagen it'll be as a customer. No longer a staff.

scooping 101

The fondue chocolate

i get to make the waffle cone!

first failed attempt =="

The waffle i got because i'm leaving.
p/s : the waffle was nice before i tried to stab it out of the waffle iron =="

waffle + fondue chocolate + maple syrup + strawberry sauce

Goodbye Haagen

Good Night.

Baby, What About The Ending?

Applications, applications, applications. March is ending. Must decide on what I want to be.

If I were to pursue this path I would need to start back at diploma level because I need to learn all the basics skills. Honestly I would be happy to do this for the rest of my life. However the fact that i have to start over everything pulls me back. As much as I wish to continue this path I cant afford to star everything all over. I can do this as a hobby or when I'm free but I doubt I cant continue to pursue this ambition. So to those I gave my creations to, cherish them because there might not be anymore of my creations =/

So so currently considering a career as a chemical engineer. I LOVE chemistry and a chemical engineer seemed to be the only job I can see myself having interest in doing. I wont be putting so much hope into getting chemical engineering in local unis. I want to go to Curtin! But but even woth loans my parents still have to pay. Asking them is the hard part. I shall consider all my options first only decide i suppose. Problem with Curtin is the only intake is in early July and I need to send the application buy April and pay the fees by May. So much for working my way to earn for uni ==

This is one of the rare nights I am home. Not running around serving ice cream. Got two days of work left. Gonna miss Haagen D:

Good Night.

Kiss Goodbye

HAPPY BDAYYY IVY

p/s : The title of this post is kiss goodbye because it's the only lee hom song i know lol

Though I Haven't Slept In Two Days

So much for getting cheap ice cream D: 

why oh whyyyy? ( no I'm not talking bout the discount)

I Just Want It Back The Way It Was Before

Things like this are gonna make me miss Haagen so so much.

Good luck to everyone taking results tomorrow. Have fun trying to sleep tonight hahahahaha

I've Been Waiting For You Since You've Been Gone

Somehow i find the winter wonderland in this video very obsessive. Things like this get to me hahaha. Shall create something like this soon. If I have the time.

Applications, applications, applications! What should I choose? D:

formspring.me

Ask me anything http://www.formspring.me/leejing

When Violet Eyes Get Brighter

Eating brownie and ice cream in the middle of the night.
"I'm not paying you RM5 per hour to eat ice cream!"
Trying ice cream everyday to refresh my memory on the flavor.

Moments like this are going to make me miss Haagen dearly

The Silence Isn't So Bad

If you knew the purpose of your very existence in this world, would you still followed your destined path?

I can get a pint size haagen for like.. 25 bucks. Do let me know if anyone wants one. Gonna make full use of my discount before I leave Haagen

Good Night

I'll Taste The Sky And Feel Alive Again

Chemistry or arts? Oh god help me choose.

Yes I'll focus on applications and spend my free time doing nothing but that. I hope.

Scooping 101

Working at Haagen is fun but I don't earn enough to cover my expenses to get to Haagen ==

So gonna stop haagen. Starting Padini in April. WHO WANT HAAGEN DISCOUNT FASTER COME EAT lololol
Good Night.

The Stars Lean Down To Kiss You

How I wish to be looking upon the stars and need not to worry about anything. However I'm living in reality *grumbles*
Good Night

I'll Watch The Night Turn Night-Blue

Have you ever face a situation where everyone put their hopes to you and you failed to achieve what they expect you to do? See the disappointment and surprise in their face when you meet them. Oh god I get that from everyone I met in school yesterday. Yes I shall attempt my best to make sure I will not face this sort of situation again.

Working in Haagen may not earn much but the people there are awesome. I learned to scoop ice cream today!

Anyhowwwwwwww need to decide what should I be in the future. What I should apply and should I pursue making presents as a way to earn a living. Loads of thinking to be done tomorrow.

Good Night.

Everything's On Fire

A day of self pity and I've managed to pick myself up. Getting a result like this made me realize I need to grow up. I need to figure out what my priorities are. Yes I will be more mature now. I hope lol.

Looking back at the past 2 years and how a small decision could have and would have changed everything. No, I'm not having any regrets. I promised myself i wouldn't. I'm just thinking of the what if's and would haves if I made those decisions.

One, I wanted to study at Uniten. Take a foundation in mechanical engineering. But I decided to not go because I did not have the money to go. ( Yes I know there is always a loan ). Would my life be better there? I would learn how to live alone in the big big city. Would my future be different then? I wouldn't know.

Two, I wanted to transfer to Jit Sin to continue form 6. Would I get better grades? The teachers there are better. Really. The good thing about form 6 in high school is the awesome chemistry teachers. Compared to high school Jit Sin is obviously the better school. But will a different school make my results better? I wouldn't know.

Three, I wanted to take up HSC in INTI. I was offered a partial scholarship and the program is only 10 months. packed, yes, but it's more recognized than STPM. Again I decided not to take as I did not want to take up a loan so soon. Would my life be better? Would I get to go overseas and study? I wouldn't know.

I decided to stay in form 6 in high school. I decided to become a prefect. I decided not to keep quiet when there's obviously injustice in the school. I decided to argue and stand up against a sad sad tyrannic teacher. I've met my MUET teacher who not only taught me English, but also on life and how I should take life on so I wont life get the better of me. I've joined Interact Club and I've met plenty of people who made my life fun. From Interact I've met interactors from convent, st george, free school and chung ling. I've met the Rotaractors who can make activities like picking up rubbish a truly fun thing to do. I've met all my juniors who I've never really talked to when I was in form 5. I've met purple who lit up my life for half a year. I've met all the awesome form 5's, form 4's and some form 3's. I've learn bits and bits of mandarin in form 6. I've made my presence felt in that school. Ignoring the mad admins, life at school was awesome as I get to talk and meet my form 5 chemistry teacher who was like a mother to me in school.

So no regrets. All the what if's and would and could haves doesn't matter anymore. The past is and will always remained the past. All there is now is the present and the future. All I can do now is look to the stars and hopefully one shooting star will come by and I can get a wish.

p/s : I did not mention names in this post as I'm afraid I would forget to mention everyone. You know who you are. You don't need me to say who you all are. Your awesome.

Good Night.

Let Go, Let Go, Let Go

No regrets. I have no one but myself to blame for what I got today. But seriously I did not expect it to be this terrible. Oh god I need to figure out a completely new path to my now gloomy future. Looking back when i first sat for the paper and how i thought i did in the papers, it didn't turn out to be so bad. No I did not expect to get awesome results. I expect to get decent ones. Oh god.
Yes I'll admit I tend to take the fact that I have sufficient intellect for granted. No I will not blame anyone for anything. All I can do now is hope there is a silver lining behind this big dark stormy gloomy cloud. Oh god save me. (It's ironic I can only hope from god eventhough I don't have a religion)
Good Night.

Everybody's Looking For Something

The day of reckoning is finally upon all of us tomorrow. Results day people. I've been lucky to get all A's in all my major exams. Will i be lucky again this time around? Maths is making me very doubtful. Anyhow too late for regrets now. Just pray and hope for the best? only god and the upcoming general elections can salvage my results now.
Good night.

Who Am I To Disagree?

I can actually get fat working in Haagen. I get to eat the fondue chocolate. Drink hot chocolate almost everyday and I get to try the ice cream. Try and try and try and try and try. I might want to quit if the pay is low but the allure of chocolates and free pint sized ice cream made me want to stay longer.
Currently obsessing over the Grimm fairy tales. Please let me know if anyone can find a compilation of the actual stories. Not the happy ones. The actual dark, grim and violent stories.
p/s : I ain't dark, grim and violent. I just find fairy tales like these very interesting.
Good night

Was I Out Of Line? Did I Say Something Way Too Honest That Made You Run And Hide

There are two sides of a story. Hearing from one side doesn't really ensure the story is true. Listen to both sides and only make your judgement after knowing the full story.

No, I haven't gone through the new zealand pictures. Very exhausted after coming home from work. Speaking of work, the assistant manager explained I did not get long hours (more pay) because I ain't acting mature enough. I tend to hop around when I walk and apparently I must act all mature and professionally when working to ensure the customers get the service they paid for. Hearing different opinions on this matter made me unsure of what to do. Should I change? I am who I am. A change can be difficult. Oh well...
On a brighter note I can get a free pint size ice cream if I work more than 80 hours a month. Free ice cream for everyone! :D

BLACK ROCK SHOOTER IS AWESOME OMG OMG OMG OMG

Good night

Sweet Dreams Are Made Of This

Hellooooooo. Haven't been updating my blog in a while now. Went to new zealand on the 20th of February and came back on 28th. Been using the browser I use my blog to download the new zealand pictures so cant log in to blogger. Anddddd the reason I blog in the middle of the night is cos I usually come back from work in the middle of the night LOL

Anyhowwwwww.....

Went to ze land of ze moo moo for a week. Stayed at the north island for 3 days and the south island for 3 days. Went broke on chocolates and candies and..... BUNGY!

Bungy is the best thing I've done in my life so far. The fear when I'm standing on the ledge. The adrenaline rush when i leap off. I'll never forget that feeling in my life.

yes i did it!

the entire jump i was smiling

*attempts to touch the water*

I got a cert! the scholarships offers will come pouring in

Shall upload the new zealand pictures when i go through them. Good Night