I Get A Little Bigger, But Then I'll Admit I'm Just The Same As I Was

I've been staying in Pahang for almost 8 months. Initially I do not feel a sense of belong here as I felt out of place for not being able to speak Mandarin.I felt the same way too when I was in form 6 as everyone was having fun and I'll be the one who stares blankly and try to comprehend the situation. When I came into UMP the situation was the same as it was in form 6. Everyone speaks mandarin and again I felt out of place.

But honestly now I do feel a sense of belong. Joining aiesec and meeting people who are sort of in the same predicament as me gave me a sense of belong while being away from glorious Penang food. So now I'm given a homework lolol. I'm supposed to tell a person I look up to and why. I find this topic interesting so I decide to steal it for a blog post.

SO... the person I look up to is... *cue the drum roll* Dr. Gregory House, a fictional character in a tv series titled House.

It may be quite odd that a person I look up to is not even an actual person but a fictional character from a medical drama. When I was asked who I looked to the first person came into my mind was him. If you do not know Dr. Gregory House is a drug-addicted, unconventional, misanthropic medical genius who leads a team of diagnosticians at the fictional Princeton-Plainsboro Teaching Hospital.

He is a narcissist, sarcastic and stubborn. So why do I look up to such a person? It's because his mentality is interesting. "Everybody lies" was among his favourite quote. He do not trust people and weigh logic above emotions. He have zero faith in humanity and do not believe in God. I look up to him because he is unconventional. I have a tendency to try to be unique, in simpler words I'm a hipster in my own sense.

I've learned a lot from House. I learn about how people and reality can be harsh. We always think the best of people but we must also be realistic and think the worst of people. It's like how people can appear nice and all in public but no one knows how the think on the inside. People are superficial. If i asked a random question like " Is it wrong to kill a person?". The answer people would answer would be "Of course it is wrong!" But that is a answer everyone wants to hear. Some people might think otherwise but they would not voice it out. Like what House always says "Everybody lies".

"If you talk to God you're religious. If God talks to you, you're psychotic." House do not believe in God. He sees God as a figure people go to when they have no one else to seek help from. I'm not saying I do not believe in God but I do see the logic in his thinking. When you are in deep shit and have no one else to turn to what do you do? Pray and hope something good will happen. When you life is all better not much people will seek God. This is why I do not really get religion. And I stress again I DO believe in God. Just not any god in particular. I hope I don't get preached again for this.

"Tell a surgeon it's okay to cut a leg off and he's going to spend the night polishing his good hacksaw.... they care about their patients. They just care about themselves more." Everyone is self centered. No matter how they persuade you otherwise they will think of themselves first over others.

It's kinda odd  that for someone like me who appear to be so jolly can think of people in such a grim way but then again I'm just a human being so I'm just as superficial as everyone else. On the outside I act like everyone else but I might not be the same on the inside.

Don't worry I don't think it's right to kill a person. Or do I? LOLOL

And about politics?

After the hearing the outcome of the GE13 everyone particularly the PKR supporters outraged over the absence of democracy in Malaysia. The BN supporters on the other hand are blasting racist sentiments aiming at the Chinese.What saddens me the most that even a teacher from my school keep posting racist post aiming at the Chinese as well. So I shall be politically neutral and do what I can as a youth and a leader of tomorrow. Good day peeps!

And I'll admit I just woke up not long ago -.- good god I need to sort out my bio clock. Finals in a month!

I'm a hipster who tries to be more hip than a typical hipster and when I work and save enough money I shall get hipster glasses (Y)

There are no birthdays this month so if you're here to see my presents stay tuned next month aite :D