So Just Take A Chance, Try To Hold My Hand I Swear I’d Never Let Go

Expectations:

A strong belief that something will happen or be the case in the future.

A belief that someone will or should achieve something

Everyone have their own expectations. I for one have my own expectations of myself. People also have their expectations on me, for instance how or what I'm supposed to achieve. As much as I am a dreamer, I am quite realistic on my expectations. Like when I first got my STPM results I was like omg I might be going to Pahang. And my expectations came true. Although I could have opt for a risk and try for UTP I decided to
accept my fate and pursue my degree here.

The main reason I'm talking about expectations is that people always have high expectations of me. I'm not the most humble person you'll ever meet but I'll honestly tell you, I am not as great as everything expects me to be.

Is it because I speak English? Everyone can speaks English! Is it because I can socialize randomly? Everyone can do that! What made me different than everyone else? How is it that I get so much high expectations when I'm just like everyone else? It's kinda depressing to let loads of people down whenever they plied their expectations on me. 

Should I live up to everyone's expectations? I hope to. Not being able to live up to everyone's expectations is annoying. I know I should think more about how I feel about myself rather than about how others think of me. Nevertheless the expectations they plied on me aren't that bad. Who knows if I'm able to live up to them I can achieve great things *shrugs

Moo

The Library is really beautiful

Unholy ball of light that dries the whole uni

Rainbowww!

The Pretty blue sky

Me new notebook

I'm a sucker for things like this

*crosses fingers*

I Crossed My Heart And Hope To Die

For the past 3 days I've been having almost the same dream. I've always woke up in my dream in my room at my own house. Looking at all my stuff and feel at home. When I actually woke up in reality in my hostel room I felt quite sad. This may be the first time I felt homesick. For the past 2 months I've been here all I felt was foodsick. Oh how much I miss you dear o'porky.

Today just happened to be the one day every year I feel annoyed that I have to grow up. I don't want to grow up. i want to always be the boy who wish to be among the star in the heavens, forever munching on strawberries and chocolates. But, reality is harsh. I have to grow up and step into adulthood. Putting a 2 in front of my age make it sound like I'm veryyyyy old. It's kinda depressing to be born at this time of the year especially in Malaysia because most of the major exams are held now. Well I do not have any exams but I'm not home. Depressing much. Oh well perhaps I can escape during Christmas. Hopefully.

Time past, people change, but no worries I'll always be the jumpy jolly kid who loves candy and stars.

It's kinda depressing to be looking at my Sharpies, color papers and embosser and felt like making something for myself #foreveralone

Oh well

I've Been Waiting All Day, For You To Call Me Baby

'If Tom had learned anything... it was that you can't ascribe great cosmic significance to a simple earthly event. Coincidence, that's all anything ever is, nothing more than coincidence... Tom had finally learned, there are no miracles. There's no such thing as fate, nothing is meant to be. He knew, he was sure of it now. '

-500 Days Of Summer -

I love that movie so so much. Maybe the reason I can watch it over and over and over again is because of the story line and Zooey Deschanel. 

I've come to the point again when I wonder if what I am doing now is what I want to do. All my life I've been studying science. But I don't really see my self being an engineer working on a lab somewhere or researching with tiny electronics. I wanna make presents! I want to make stars and give them to random people so I can brighten up their day. But honestly I cant see myself making a living out of that. Perhaps after 4 years I might love fiddling with electronics and construct a snow machine so I can experience snowwwwww.

Most of my seniors told me there is a huge chance I might not continue to be an engineer after graduating. Most of the grads they know are pursuing various fields which are not related to engineering. Perhaps I can be like that?

Anyhow I should focus on the present and not wonder about the uncertainties in the future. My current aim is to work as an engineer until I can get a stable income. After that I want to open up my own arts and craft shop. Either that or I study business and analyse the market and start a chain. In order for all of that to happen, I need to finish my assignment and presentations first LOL

ily taylor

I'm feeling creative again! But I don't time to materialize the ideas in my head. Oh well it'll have to wait until January when I get a longer break.

I'm gonna turn 20 soon DDDDDD: in a week plus I'll grow out of my teens and... become old? 

For someone who always get presents for people, I don't really know what I want for myself. 

Oh well

Take A Deep Breath In The Mirror

My blog ain't dead yet. Hopefully. 

I'm going home in two days!

Going home to this!

Saying goodbye to this

I actually wanna print out a life size taylor swift poster and paste on my wall but she's too tall so I wanted to print So Yeon instead but it's still very big so I wanted to print a life sized Pikachu but it's too yellow so I'll just grab some poster from home and paste it here.

I say goodbye to So Yeon Here but I have Taylor Swift to welcome me home!

We Can Stay Together

I made a lot of efforts to obtain study materials but I did not make enough efforts to study D: Holidays are coming yayyy.

I got a notice board in my room. Can deco :D

I'll be back next Saturdayyyy. Got two tests before that tho =="

Happy November!