My Castle Crumble Overnight

 In a blink of an eye, another year has passed

This truly is a year unlike any other

It's a year that makes us truly reflect what matters the most to us

It makes us think again what truly is important and needs to be cherished

To be honest, 2020 hasn't changed me much. I was evolving into a recluse anyways

2020 derailed my plans on going on a working holiday in NZ in Jan 2021.

I always had this thought that no matter how bad the day was, I just need to hang on until Jan 2021 when I can finally escape and explore NZ.

I've always wanted to backpack around a country on my own for a long time. Back when I just graduated, I worked part time in hopes to save enough money to backpack the entire SEA starting from Ho Chi Minh City.

While working part time, I did apply for some random jobs here and there as an engineer. In one of the interviews, the hiring manager gave me a reality slap. He asked why am I wasting my time on a part time job when I should be serious about building my career. 

Well I was young, dumb and definitely broke, that interview scared me into finding a full time job as an engineer and forgo my backpacking plans.

After getting my first job, that is when my morphing into a social recluse starts.

Looking back into my AIESEC years, I can't imagine how I was able to be so youthful and full of hope.

But hey, not everything is loom and gloom.

Stepping into adulthood made me learn sometimes not everything will turn out the way you wanted.

2020 is definitely a year of that.

So here I am, spending the last few hours of 2020 at home writing this

Don't get me wrong

I am not sad

I am grateful to be where I am today

I've gotten through most of 2020 still having a job

Still having the people most important to be around

I am content

My dreams and plans may got derailed but all it takes is just a little more planning to re-align everything back again.

Here's to a better year ahead

I wish you all to be thankful and remain hopeful

Better days are coming

Just go Genting and strike gold

Stay home

Stay safe

Spread hope

Not hate

I'm always thankful to have 2 sisters who constantly share otter and dog videos on Instagram

All I want is Nothing More ,To hear You Knocking at My Door

Hello 2020!

Expected flying cars but all we got was wildfires, government implosion and a virus pandemic.

Well.... fuck

Every single decision you made in your life has led you to this very moment. Reading this very line.

I hope whoever you are reading this. You are content with how far you come in life.

Everyone grows up. That is inevitable. We grow up in 2 ways. Physically and mentally.

However not often those 2 grow up concurrently.

That's why sometimes you meet some people who are immature or some people who appear wiser than their age.

There are few phases of mental growth.

When we are small, that's the childhood phase. We are innocent, playful and eager to learn about the world around us. 

As we grow up, we enter the teenage phase. Rebellious and always want to be treated like an adult. Often times you will always want to go out meet your friends and spend on random things with the money you don't even earn.

Growing out of that phase it the youthful phase. We enter a stage of life where we seek to find our purpose in life. More than often we would like to do something to create an impact on the society. We are highly motivated and the all the possibilities seems endless. There is no limit to what we can do and achieve.

Finally we enter the adult life. Life don't seem as colorful as it used to and the bills and responsibility starts to pile up. We start to sacrifice the ambitions in our youth and move on to the more realistic paths. 

Sometimes people grow up and enter the adulthood but their mental stage is still at the teenage stage. That is the most dangerous combination. Imagine being a reckless teen with the spending power of a working adult. These people are those who are willing to take up a personal loan to buy the latest gadgets or the trendiest outfits.  

We came into the world with nothing and we will leave the world in the same way. 

Time is never your friend.

The day you are born, the clock starts ticking.

You don't want to look back at your life and have nothing to feel but regrets.

Grow up please.

These are just my random rantings of the observations of the people I've met in my life.

Gotta post something at least once a year so this blog don't die along my hopes and dreams

Anyhow

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Here's to looking for better days ahead.

Stay home, stay safe

So Casually Cruel In The Name Of Being Honest

How long before that bubble burst? Can two people of different realities be happy with each other?

As I grow older, material things seems to matter less and thoughts and relationships truly does matter more.

Maybe we were young we do not have the means to get the things we want. We always have to rely on our parents to get it for us. Once I step into adulthood, I just find those items don't matter as much as they do when I was young anymore.

Perhaps after working, I realized money doesn't come by easy and it is not worth to spend so much on material things.

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I thought I was over the emo, cryptic, attention seeking phase but here I am being emo and cryptic and spamming Paramore, Fall Out Boy and My Chemical Romance on my playlist

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Being an adult is being able to afford KFC for every meal.

Being mature means if you eat KFC for every meal you're gonna go broke and die early.

We Could Leave the Christmas Lights Up 'til January

"There are 2 kinds of people out there.
Those who are truly happy for you and spread positivity.
Those who claimed to be happy for you but are just full of envy and spite."

Hello 2019!

I might be 8 months late but hey it's the first and most probably last blog post of 2019!

Waaaay back in 2015, I came up with this list:

Things I want to do in life:

1. See snow.
2. Go bungee jumping.
3. Visit Paris and Tokyo
4. Watch Taylor Swift live.
5. Go on an exchange  
6.  So many things

You can have a look at the post here

4 years later, I am proud to have said I am able to cross out 1.5 of the items in the list.

Things I want to do in life:

1. See snow.
2. Go bungee jumping.
3. Visit Paris and Tokyo
4. Watch Taylor Swift live.
5. Go on an exchange  
6.  So many things

I HAVE SEEN SNOW FOR THE FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE

For those of you have been with me since my whimsical high school years, I've always go around ranting about how I've always wanted to see snow and why Malaysia no snow D: I was not prepared for this. I went up to Jungfraujoch wearing 2 thin layers and a windbreaker. Nonetheless it was an amazing experience to being able to see something I've always wanted to see in my entire life.

Everyone asked me why didn't I propose it's because I can only afford super rings instead of a diamond ring.

The other 0.5 item from my list is visit Paris. Way back in 2015, I don't know why I put that on my list to be honest. But Paris was nice. I wouldn't say it's amazing, partly because it smells a bit like pee at some places and I almost got pick pocketed on my first day there. The buildings there are no joke tho. 

It really is a beautiful city.

Aside from Paris, I've went to 5 other towns/cities during my 2 weeks in Europe:

London

Strasbourg

Basel

Interlaken

Bern

You can see more of the photos if I ever decided to post it on Facebook. I might or might not come up with the itinerary. 

To those of you who always wanted to travel to your dream place, just go for it. 

To those who think I am loaded, I am not.

It took me a few years to save up for this. 

It wasn't easy but it is possible.

I am glad I am able to share this experience with the people I care about the most.

As you grow older, priorities change. 

As you grow older, your circle of friends grows smaller as well. 

As you grow older, you'll start to cherish the people who have been with you since the beginning. 

As you grow older, you'll appreciate family.

Ann why you no red shoes??

I'll end this post with my favorite polaroid.

Look At That Face, You Look Like My Next Mistake

If you're not willing to give, what gives you the right to take everything? Life is simple. There are times you have to give in order to take. If you expect to go through life by taking everything and not giving back anything, you'll either walk a lonely path or make a lot of enemies along the way.

There will be moments in your life when you have to burn bridges and walk away from the toxicity. Just cut off all ties. It'll be healthier.

Hello 2018!

Well technically it's 3 months going to 4 months into 2018 but hey this is the first post of 2018. It's been a while since I have the feeling to rant post something on this blog space. As I've always said every year, I ain't gonna let this blog dieeeeeeeeee.

Looking back in 2017, there are a lot of things to be thankful for. I had the opportunity to travel to Hanoi and Luang Prahang.

Finally get to see Sa Pa! It is as amazing as I imagined it to be

Tak Dak in Luang Prabang

2017 is probably the year I stayed more within my comfort zone and cherish the people around me. Life has settled down to a routine where I just got comfortable with being anti-social after work on weekdays and bringing my mom out for movies in the weekends. I have no life

Some people may find that dull. But hey I am content. It made me realize how much I cherish the people around me, especially everyone who stayed on all these while.

Things to look for in 2018:

Making moments into memories

Exploring new places

Eat EVERYTHING

Appreciate and keep the people that matters the most

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Here's to another great year!

Stay with me always