All Too Well

Things I want to do in life:

1. See snow.
2. Go bungee jumping.
3. Visit Paris and Tokyo
4. Watch Taylor Swift live.
5. Meet Park So Yeon  
6.  So many things

On June 11th I'm so glad I'm able to cross off another item off the list. I get to see Taylor Swift perform live in Malaysia! When I first heard of the concert I was so excited and happy that she FINALLY come to Malaysia. I follow up with the updates and my heart was broken when I saw the ticket prices. I'm just from an average family so honestly I couldn't afford to buy the RED zone, I opt to buy the cheaper ticket. I skipped a trip to Gambang water park so I can stay online to buy the ticket LOL. 

11 a.m. the tickets go on sale. Within minutes the ticket that I wanted was sold out. I opted for a slightly more expensive ticket. When I press checkout it was sold out. The only ticket that remain was the RED zone which is a whopping RM728. I was in a huge dilemma. It's either I go broke or I don't get to see her at all. Ever. Worrying I might never get the chance to see her, I bought the RED zone. I felt guilty for months spending so much. In order to make sure I survive until the concert day I work took up a part time job all the way in Kuantan. The guilt lasted for months and finally when the concert day arrive, I was so excited that the guilt all go away. 

Lesson of the day: If there is something you always wanted to do in life, just go for it. Opportunities come and go and you will never know when you will have the chance again.

I took a huge (and expensive) opportunity and I get to see my favorite singer perform live in front of me. All this years I've been watching her songs and performances on YouTube and it was an amazing experience to see the actual performance live. The atmosphere. The euphoria. 

Weeks and even months before the concert I was obsessing over one of her performance in Brit Awards. She sang "I knew you were trouble". I almost fainted when she perform that song in the same way as she did in the Brit Awards. 

No I did not get to shake her hand or take a photo with her but I got her autographed CD as well as a guitar pick thrown by Grant Mickelson, one of the guitarist in her band. I was so close to the stage and she was practically in front of me. 

Jinnyboy!

No photo or handshake but an autographed album as well as a guitar pick ensure I did not go home empty handed 

I love you HTC but your camera really disappointed me in this concert. I couldn't take a nice picture :( I am tempting to invest on an iPhone in the near future. Time to work like mad this semester break. 

I was planning to upload all this on facebook but the uploader gone mad. Okay now I shall start my study week LOL

 I <3 Taylor Swift

If Our Love Is Tragedy, Why Are You My Remedy?

Would you rather live in a world of fantasy and blissfully ignore the truth or rather burst the bubble and live in reality? In (500) Days of Summer, Tom refused to ask Summer what is their current status. Are they just friends or something more? He is worried if he asked Summer the blissful bubble they are currently in will burst and everything will fall apart.

So have you ever been fearful of the truth? Have you ever been in a situation where you are not sure you are just friends or something more? Have you ever felt afraid by seeking clarity you might break that bubble and things will all go bad?

So if given a choice would you choose to stay in the blissful bubble or burst the bubble and know the reality?

I have a few confession to make 

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Pikachu is not my favorite pokemon :OOOOOO

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And I was not Taylor Swift's fan initially.

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And Taylor Swift and Pikachu is what people associate with me. 

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I find this ironic

But honestly

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I'm Taylor Swift number 1 fan now LOL

<3 <3 <3

Less than a month before the RED Tour! :D

okay I shall try be realistic and burst that bubble.

Selamat Malam.

A Star, So Bright You Blind Me

"We accept the love we think we deserve" 

- The Perks of Being a Wallflower

“If I had a world of my own, everything would be nonsense.” 

― Lewis Carroll, Alice Adventures in Wonderland

"Love is not real, it's just a fantasy"

-Summer Finn, (500) Days of Summer

" Everybody lies"

- Gregory House, House M.D.

“Some people are meant to fall in love with each other... but not meant to be together..” 
― 500 Days of Summer

“I wouldn't even consider it if I were you. But then if I were you, I would not be me, and if I were not me, I would not be able to advise you, and if I were unable to advise you, you'd do as you like, so you might as well do as you like and have done with it.” 
― Catherynne M. Valente, The Girl Who Circumnavigated Fairyland in a Ship of Her Own Making

“People change. Feelings change. It doesn’t mean that the love once shared wasn’t true or real. It simply means that sometimes when people grow, they grow apart.” 
― (500) Days of Summer

“That’s what happens to friends, eventually. They leave you. It’s practically what they’re for.” 
― Catherynne M. Valente, The Girl Who Circumnavigated Fairyland in a Ship of Her Own Making

“Fate is like a strange, unpopular restaurant filled with odd little waiters who bring you things you never asked for and don't always like.” 
― Lemony Snicket

“Do you ever do this, you think back on all the times you've had with someone and you just replay it in your head over and over again and you look for those first signs of trouble?” 
― (500) Days of Summer

“All the secrets of the world are contained in books. Read at your own risk.” 
― Lemony Snicket

If everyone read novels and children's stories the world might be a better place. I think most of my life philosophy comes from children books. People say I am random and creative. I think of myself as whimsical. I just do and think of the random things I want. When I try to force myself to be creative it usually don't work which is why I sucked at contests which require creativity. 

My wishful thinking might not be too well suited for an engineering career.

Oh well we are all here for a reason. Until the day we know why we will wander aimlessly seeking our purpose.  

Until we discover the why let's all make tons of lemonade. 

I think a lot of people will not get the lemonade reference. If you get it WE MUST TALK hahahaha it's rare to find people who think in the same wavelength as me.

An example of my randomness "Your eyes are like the streets of Penang, I can't stop getting lost in them"

kthxbye

All I Knew This Morning When I Woke Is I know Something Now, Know Something Now I Didn't Before.

My over obsession with (500) Days of Summer make me think my life is like (500) Days. Everyone person I come to contact with just drift off. Everything was happy initially but one day everything has changed and everyone sort of drifted apart. People come and go. There aren't many who stay for a long time.

A lot can change in a month. I feel reluctant to go back most of the time during my holidays which is why I only meet everyone once in 4 months. I feel very socially awkward now lols.

37 days before the RED Tour!

I can't swim but I love water. Pools, lakes and oceans. I think I was a fish before I was a human.

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Everything will change eventually but sometimes I want everything to be the same all the time because I will be happy. 

I want to freeze time.

Baby I Love You But I'm Not A Monster

You will realize how big the world is and how small it can be at times. For instance I grew up studying in an English ed school. During my years in school I always thought everyone speaks English and it's quite normal to not really understand Mandarin. My little bubble burst when I entered form 6. Only then I realized there aren't much English ed people out there. That is when I realize how small my world was. I was always comfortable with all my friends who have the same mentality.

Now I think I can count the number of English ed people in my university with my two hands. I'm not trying to be bias or subjective but I seemed to be able to click better with people with the same thinking. During my presentations I make references to pop culture as a joke. "Hey why do we exercise? So we might stand a chance to fight Chuck Norris!" A long awkward silence soon followed. 

But hey life is a long and challenging journey. Maybe when I can understand Mandarin better I might be able to click with everyone here. I think I've become more socially awkward coming to UMP.

I forgot how pretty the clouds are in the morning. 

Two years left to achieve my goal of mastering Mandarin before I graduate!

Hello 5 day weekend! :D