I Get A Little Bigger, But Then I'll Admit I'm Just The Same As I Was

I've been staying in Pahang for almost 8 months. Initially I do not feel a sense of belong here as I felt out of place for not being able to speak Mandarin.I felt the same way too when I was in form 6 as everyone was having fun and I'll be the one who stares blankly and try to comprehend the situation. When I came into UMP the situation was the same as it was in form 6. Everyone speaks mandarin and again I felt out of place.

But honestly now I do feel a sense of belong. Joining aiesec and meeting people who are sort of in the same predicament as me gave me a sense of belong while being away from glorious Penang food. So now I'm given a homework lolol. I'm supposed to tell a person I look up to and why. I find this topic interesting so I decide to steal it for a blog post.

SO... the person I look up to is... *cue the drum roll* Dr. Gregory House, a fictional character in a tv series titled House.

It may be quite odd that a person I look up to is not even an actual person but a fictional character from a medical drama. When I was asked who I looked to the first person came into my mind was him. If you do not know Dr. Gregory House is a drug-addicted, unconventional, misanthropic medical genius who leads a team of diagnosticians at the fictional Princeton-Plainsboro Teaching Hospital.

He is a narcissist, sarcastic and stubborn. So why do I look up to such a person? It's because his mentality is interesting. "Everybody lies" was among his favourite quote. He do not trust people and weigh logic above emotions. He have zero faith in humanity and do not believe in God. I look up to him because he is unconventional. I have a tendency to try to be unique, in simpler words I'm a hipster in my own sense.

I've learned a lot from House. I learn about how people and reality can be harsh. We always think the best of people but we must also be realistic and think the worst of people. It's like how people can appear nice and all in public but no one knows how the think on the inside. People are superficial. If i asked a random question like " Is it wrong to kill a person?". The answer people would answer would be "Of course it is wrong!" But that is a answer everyone wants to hear. Some people might think otherwise but they would not voice it out. Like what House always says "Everybody lies".

"If you talk to God you're religious. If God talks to you, you're psychotic." House do not believe in God. He sees God as a figure people go to when they have no one else to seek help from. I'm not saying I do not believe in God but I do see the logic in his thinking. When you are in deep shit and have no one else to turn to what do you do? Pray and hope something good will happen. When you life is all better not much people will seek God. This is why I do not really get religion. And I stress again I DO believe in God. Just not any god in particular. I hope I don't get preached again for this.

"Tell a surgeon it's okay to cut a leg off and he's going to spend the night polishing his good hacksaw.... they care about their patients. They just care about themselves more." Everyone is self centered. No matter how they persuade you otherwise they will think of themselves first over others.

It's kinda odd  that for someone like me who appear to be so jolly can think of people in such a grim way but then again I'm just a human being so I'm just as superficial as everyone else. On the outside I act like everyone else but I might not be the same on the inside.

Don't worry I don't think it's right to kill a person. Or do I? LOLOL

And about politics?

After the hearing the outcome of the GE13 everyone particularly the PKR supporters outraged over the absence of democracy in Malaysia. The BN supporters on the other hand are blasting racist sentiments aiming at the Chinese.What saddens me the most that even a teacher from my school keep posting racist post aiming at the Chinese as well. So I shall be politically neutral and do what I can as a youth and a leader of tomorrow. Good day peeps!

And I'll admit I just woke up not long ago -.- good god I need to sort out my bio clock. Finals in a month!

I'm a hipster who tries to be more hip than a typical hipster and when I work and save enough money I shall get hipster glasses (Y)

There are no birthdays this month so if you're here to see my presents stay tuned next month aite :D 

Make It Up As You Go

It's finally the end of April and also the end of a busy month. Next month will be an exam month D:

It was a busy and eventful month. So this was the first present I poured so much effort into making this year. I managed to make a book! :D

AIESEC in UMP managed to organize Youth to Market Reality which is like a forum aiming to guide students on what steps to take when moving on from studies to working life. Being part of the organizing team is an awesome experience. It was a lot of hard work at first but when the event finally started you'll feel so proud of being able to help out in making everything possible.

May will be the month I shall TRY to take a break off everything and finally open up a book and read lolol. I still have a project to come up with so I shall say goodbye to my social life D: so yea that's about it. Shall open calcu... ooooo game of thrones dl about to finish lolol

I'm Never Changing Who I Am

I'm feeling reflective at the moment. It's funny how I started this blog as a way to hope people will notice my presents and perhaps I can start a career on this and eventually I suffered a creativity blog and I used ze blog as a medium to rant.

Every now and then I think back on where I am now and what do I look forward in the future. I want to be happy. I want food. I want to travel the world. I want to see snow. I want to live among the stars when my life ends. I want to meet Taylor Swift. I want to get good grades. I want to be a graphic designer. I want to eat strawberries.

But what I am doing now don't really leads to what I want. I'm stoning in front of the laptop because my brain is mushy from processing all the information on all the meetings today. I'm trying to read up calculus for a quiz tomorrow. I'm trying to memorize the format for a technical writing assessment tomorrow. So much for strawberries, snow and Taylor Swift.

Oh well at least I get to go to Petroscience yesterday :D

A random fact about me.I'm often whimsical and random but I do not speak the way I type. I often have troubles conveying what's in my head into reality or into words. I'm attracted to things or people who are whimsical. And I mumble a lot when I talk.


Okayy I should be reading calculus now if I want to have at least a few hours of sleep. Good Night yo!

It's Time To Begin

UMP boleh!

Pirated products are aplenty but promoting them under a uni is just... wrong.

So yea everyone has to grow up eventually. Everyone still sees me as the kid and call me Pikachu but mentally I felt I aged. Why? I'm starting to care more about politics lololol. So if you been on Facebook you'll bound to know DAP can't contest under their Rocket logo due to a letter raised by the Registrar of Society. DAP has been contesting under the logo for so long. One has to wonder why they can't contest under their logo 48 hours before nomination day? One has to wonder is there such thing as a clean election? It's true we must see two sides of a story but this is just absurd.

You can say you don't take interest in politics but who says politics won't take an interest in you? No matter how much we want to migrate and leave the corruption and move on to a better place, we must always remember Malaysia is our home. If we don't want to do anything to change the state of the nation who will? I may not be eligible to vote but I want to urge those who can to really help make a difference. I'm not taking sides here but please do open up your eyes and see both sides of the story. Make a difference! :D

Dreaming about the day when you wake up and find That what you're looking for has been here the whole time

Besides food, this is the other reason I love to come home so much.

brs brs brs!

When I get bored and I read the local politics on the national papers or on tv3 then I laugh at how some people can actually believe all the crap they're saying. This shows our nation's education level is in a depressing state. The people do not know how to think and those who can already pack their bags and run off to another country.

But... this wasn't what I wanted to say initially hahaha. Took part in a community service program organised by Rotoract in Ipoh. Well I kinda wanted to go with the intention of savoring Ipoh's glorious food but BUT I did want to help out. I've been so busy with school work and AIESEC I have forgotten how it feels to take part in this sort of activities.

So yea we should be grateful with what we have and not focused on achieving success. Give a little back to the community and make the world a better place. I shall try to donate as much as I can to charity organizations IF I can be successful and make a million cards and presents for the world :)