'Cause, Darling, I'm A Nightmare Dressed Like A Daydream

So 3 months after I rant about crying about threshold values, I am back! I refuse to let this blog die lolll.

So a little update. The last time I was here I was struggling and even contemplate on extending my studies because I can't find a solution to my final year project. Somehow someway I managed to complete it and although it's not the best project, hey a pass is a pass at that stage of the semester. So about a month ago, I've unofficially graduated!

To celebrate finally surviving engineering school, I sold a kidney and went on a backpacking trip to Jogjakarta, Indonesia. Okay I didn't sell my kidneys but I went to Indonesia!

Indonesia was supposed to be a Global Passport intern reunion but due to unfortunate circumstances, everyone bailed out. I've already bought the flight tickets for a kidney, I will not late my kidney go to waste and proceed with the trip alone.

So what do you call a fully planned guided tour turned into a last minute solo backpacking trip? 

An adventure of a lifetime. 

I've done a fair bit of travelling on my own but usually when I arrive there will be people guiding me around. A solo adventure seems nerve wrecking but it was truly one of the best experience I've had so far. The carefree feeling of wandering to random places slowly discovering the gems of Jogja is so liberating.

Hello Borobudur!

The most amazing part of my trip was when I decided to rent a bike and drove 72 km to a beach just because I feel like it. I know how to drive a bike but I've never drove that far and that long and to somewhere I have no idea how to go. But sometimes in life, you just have to let go of all your fears and just do whatever you've always wanted to do.

Hello from Pantai Timang!

I almost died a few times on the way there but when I see the blue waters, I knew this was worth the journey.

The rest of my adventure can be seen on Facebook haha. My point here is that there is always a few things someone gotta try in order to make them a better person.

One, work in retail or f&b line and you'll understand better how to be a nicer person. Sometimes we gets too selfish in getting what we want we often forget the feelings of others and become a total ass. If you work retail assistant or a waiter before, you'll be able to relate. It may not be our culture but tipping can really make a waiter's day. Imagine after going through a long shift, a customer tip you as a token of gratitude for your service. It'll make the waiter feel appreciated. However the same thing can't be applied if the service is bad. If the waiter is being a total ass then screw him hahaha.

Second, go on a solo adventure. Only that time you'll be able to discover yourself. You will be someone you never thought you can be. If you're always staying in the same small circle you're comfortable in, you'll miss out on so much in life. There is more to life than the daily routines we do everyday. Our days are always numbered, do you want to fill the last page of your book with the same pages as before? If you don't have the money for it, sell a kidney!  Okay just kidding don't sell a kidney maybe another organ?

Oh and HAPPY INDEPENDENCE DAY MALAYSIA!

We may always complain about how expensive things are and how stupid the politicians can be but deep down, we'll always be proud of our awesome Penang Malaysian Food

Magic, Madness, Heaven, Sin

Hello 2016! well technically I'm 4 months and 27 days late but hey this is my first blog post of 2016. 2016 is a year of.... well it's just like every other year except I have one extra day in February to procrastinate lolol.

At this point of life, I'm well deep into the final semester of my degree life. I am.... to be honest still as clueless as ever about what to do and what will I do in the near future. You won't realize how fast time goes until you are almost at the end of your journey. Frankly speaking I can't really believe it's been 4 years since I first left home and stepped into Pahang. 

There are moments in life where you wish time would just stop and you can live that moment forever. But that's when reality kicks in and you gotta move on and stay in the present. To be honest although I've complained so much about being in Pahang, the past 4 years have been awesome. The people I've met and the experiences that I've gained. I'm still immature sometimes but the past 4 years have leveled me up a lot. 

Well I can't say I'm competent as an engineer. I'm still working on that part but I am getting competent as an adult stepping into the potential working world. I'm ever thankful for the experience I've gained through AIESEC, Without it I feel I will still be the kid who waste money and time. Well I do still waste time but I've become more financially responsible lolol. AIESEC triggered my wanderlust spirit and in a way it made me manage my finances better. I've worked countless part time jobs and skipped countless meals D: but honestly the people and the things I get to see when I go around, it's truly priceless. Money can buy a lot of things and the best thing it can buy is experience. If you've always hesitant but always wanted to explore the world, just do it. Work part time jobs. Save money. Spending on yourself is not a waste, it's an investment. By seeing more things you'll be able to think in a broader perspective. When we die, all we are left with are memories. No one want to die with regrets. 

So here I am, telling people to live their dreams while I procrastinate and pray to god for answers in my final year project coding lolol. Okay.

Not a real obsessed Korean drama fan but this show is so good. 

One day I will find someone who looks at me like the way Kang Mo Yeon look at Yoo Si Jin. I wish

One of the rare nights I've regained that creative spark that kept me happy for so many years

One of the best thing I've tasted in Pahang. Mango Cheesecake by Kula Cakes. I wish I can bring this back and share with everyone in Penang.

On a side note, Happy birthday Ong Ying Peh!

I still remember the first moment I met you. You were like " Hey you're from Penang? Next time go back by bus I follow you!" That is how a friendship was formed, from the desire to go back home on the first week of university. Thank you for being the one person I can count on and save me from the academic blackholes. It's awesome to meet someone who loves food and cakes and hipster cafe joints. The time to part will be soon but hopefully we'll keep in touch and perhaps meet somewhere in Vietnam over a bowl of Phở bò.

Okay time to get back to crying over why my threshold value is wrong.

But Every Night With Us Is Like A Dream

Sometimes all it takes us for us to look up at the stars and realize how small we are.

Pride. Greed. Envy. If you follow the going on around the world you'll surely be shocked by the attack on Paris. A normal reaction from an attack so horrid would be to sympathize and mourn for the innocent lives lost. But humans are fickle things. We are more driven by our sins. Envy. Instead of mourning for Paris, some people would rather say they will not stand selective media and mourn for the attacks on Syria, Beirut and various other atrocities happening all over the world. In order to feed their pride, they will try not to be mainstream and protest against Facebook having a filter just for France. They are so desperate to get noticed, they'll be willing to say anything. Social media plays a huge part in everyone's lives. It stays alive by capitalizing on our fickle nature. We feel happy when a post get a tonne of likes, we get jealous when someone's got more shares and comments on the same post you shared, we can't get enough attention. Sometimes I wonder if the world have always been this way or was I too young to notice the reality.

So.... it's been forever since I write something here. Actually it's only been slightly over a month haha. I think i say this before but usually I only post when I have a random thought I want to rant but do not want to post it on Facebook. Ironically after writing this I will share onto Facebook lolol.

It's been 3 years and counting since I've come to Pahang. Initially when I first arrive and saw the cows, I thought I won't be able to do anything here but study and stare at the trees. Now, 3 years later, although I still stare at the trees and cows but didn't do much studying, I managed to experience a lot of things I thought I wouldn't been able to try. I've traveled a lot on my own. Learned to be more independent and not die on a random street somewhere.

So in the latter half of the mid semester break I went to Kuching to attend Qiu Xi's convocation. First time stepping on East Malaysia!

The fooooood. Actually I ate whole lot more but I forgot to take pictures of them heh

Congratulation Yong Sue Teng! Thank you for being my tour guide when Qiu Xi is busy 

Congratulation Loo Qiu Xi! Who knew your outspoken personality would help you own uni :P Thank you for hosting me and bringing me around doing what I love the most, EATTTT. It was fun being in Sarawak.

But.... reality kicks in and I gotta write 3 chapters of Thesis in two weeks lolol

Heartbreak is The National Anthem

"They say love is based on effort. I say that is a lie. Love is about meeting expectations. Let's say you wanted cold water. I put all my effort and fan the water so it's cold but one day someone comes along and puts ice in your water and that person turns out to be all you're looking for. Love is not something wholly based on effort. Its about meeting expectations." -Anonymous

Every time I write something I'll always say it's been ages since I posted here and well it's kinda true for every post. Once a while when I have a random thought I'll blog about it but these days random thoughts are getting scarce.

So as I step into final year, so many things is coming to an end. The final monsoon. The final year of playing frisbee. The final year of getting late to class because a cow blocked the road like a boss. The final year of looking at pictures of Hokkien Mee to keep your sanity. The final year to drive 7 hours just to get back home. The final year to stress about how much food to store to prepare for the winter. The final year to argue pointlessly on Facebook about extremist university rules which forbids my sexy knobbly knees.

Final year comes with a lot of final chances to do so many things. It's closer to the beginning of a new chapter in life. A lot of times I worry about what am I going to do with my life after I grad, if i grad *touches wood*. To be honest my short term goal is now to work and earn as much as I can so I can be able to see as much of world before I am confined to an office looking at a screen for the next 30 years of my life.

But for now I just hope everything goes well in the final year.

I miss Penang hipster foooood

UMP lyfe, trying to be a Pokemon Master

The beware of cows crossing sign ain't a lie

True love is how a dog look it's owner

Turtles can be hipsters too

I LOVEEEEEE BEACHES

and playing frisbee in the sun

#thuglife

Bae Suzy <3

Everything is volatile.

Screaming, Crying, Perfect Storms

"Love is not wholly based on effort. People are puzzle pieces. No matter how much effort you put in, you can't change someone's shape just to fit yours. One day someone who fits her perfectly comes and you'll be left alone reminiscing the moments. Another way to put it, she wants cold water. You put all your effort into fanning the water making it cold but one day someone comes along and put ice cubes in the water. He's just everything she's looking for."

I still talk about pokemon and play dota like a 17 year old but I just realized when I meet up with my peers, let it be from school mates or uni mates. we talk not about dota and pokemons but about work, politics, MYR being higher than our CGPAs and our looming future after graduating. Hopefully

I've always think of myself as a childish person who plans just what to eat for the next meal but when I meet up with my friends I realized I grew up without realizing. As much as I want to stay the whimsical kid who sees a pack of dogs as the mafia, a part of me slowly grew up and get in touch with reality. A part of me starts to have worries, worries which in a year or two ago I didn't know even exists.

This made me realize we can't never ever stay the same way ever. No matter how much you wish to stay the same, unless you change and grow, you will never gain anything. It's the same as your phone. Do you wish to use a sturdy Nokia 3310? Trying to read a map to find directions? If you miss those moments in the past, keep it in memory. It's the only place where moments can last an eternity.

It's been ages since I last posted something. I remember I started this blog posting hand made presents hoping I'll get spotted and get a start up to open up a gift shop. Now this blog have changed to a place where I pour my thoughts for me to look back how much I have changed over the years.

Being two weeks away from going back to university, going into final year, getting one step closer to being a graduate, I wonder what the future holds for me

Everything changes but PIK NIK remains to be my favorite hipster joint